Well i have enough, i believe its time to kill myself i just dont have any reason to go on?

i try my best to live my life, but all i get is everyone from my mom, dad, EVERYONE, mental abusing me making me feel like im a piece of ****, i try hard to but nothing seems to be good enough for anybody, hopefully there is something better after this life but i doubt it, i havent really talked to my mom in years because she constantly put me down, and made me feel like i was worthless, and she was schizophrenic, if u can imagine what thats like, my dads just a miserable alcoholic, who doesnt give a **** about anyone but himself and makes me feel like **** too, i basically have noone in this world so i really see no point in going on, i will just live a miserable exsistance, my family has ****** me up so much im extremely anti social which makes anyone who meets me think im weird, i basically self medicate with DXM, which can make me forget and have some happiness, but it sometimes make think about my life and become even more suicidal, im thinking of just going on a DXM binge until i die, noone will care i think, im just a loser